Scratch that itch

Isnt it strange what inspires you .... ?

All day today my legs were itching... and i was trying to resist it... and did until i got into bed ... and lay here ... and that was all i could think about... and then i thought "the only reason i'm not relieving this ENTIRELY irritating itch, is because someone, somewhere in my life told me to not scratch it...and for some reason it got me thinking about life...

I am constantly resisting doing thing's in my life, because something (media, upbringing, peer pressure etc) has told me i shouldn't....

naturally i am a pretty (as my mother would like to put it) "rebellious" (or as i would like to put it) "free spirited"person, i like doing/saying things outside the norm, but i still question myself... why?

I tend to do whatever it is that i wanted to do anyway, but i wish i didn't have a second thought about it...

is it my conscience or is it because the world tries to make you fit into a box?

I think i'm passed caring now...

I'm gonna scratch the itch... and not think twice about it...

Ahhhh... that feels better!!!

:)

Its been a while....

Whilst i do love writing... and my intention is to blog on a regular basis, i have not followed through with my intentions... for many reasons...

What I want to talk about today is how easy it is to talk to yourself out of something...

I'm in a situation right now, where I'm completely sure about doing something, and I know its right... but I'm paralyzed with fear... its a completely irrational fear, but often we fear the good in our lives, purely because we are expecting something to go wrong...

I'm constantly thinking the worst, expecting the worse, like its all to good to be true.. Its SO ridiculous...

Help?